On Why You Have Not Seen Much Writing from Me the Last Few Years

It's been a long while since I've had a personal post here, this blog of late mainly focusing upon beer and whatever I've been reading. It might seem things are quiet, and I suppose they are in a way. However, occasionally I am asked online when my next novel will be released, and there have been a few times I've been asked to submit a story for one anthology or another yet I've declined. I've also stepped back from writing or working with various websites.

So it would appear there is no new writing from me in at least a few years now.

There's truth to that, though I have been writing. Some. A little. Here and there.

Why is this?

I've told very few people about this, but the truth is that for the last few years I have been taking heart medications that often keep me befuddled to some extent. My head is often hazy and it is difficult to think. Even writing a blog post can take a good long while. It's an extreme struggle for the words to come.

But the pills are keeping me alive, so there's that.

On the plus side, I have completed the first two novels in another Kron Darkbow trilogy, and I'm currently (slowly) working on the third novel. If I ever finish, I'll release all three at the same time.

Besides being difficult to write, is the quality of my writing suffering? In truth, probably. It's just so difficult to string words together. Some days are better than others, but it's never easy.

Will I ever be able to stop taking this medication? Not for the foreseeable future.

I write this post just to let some people know, readers and fellows of mine in the publishing world. I'm not seeking sympathy here, mainly because I don't feel this is a tragedy. I'm sure there are some writers who would find all this quite tragic, who can't imagine not writing or who are horrified at the thought of it being so difficult to write, but I'm not one of them. For the first time in my life I can imagine myself not writing, and I'm okay with that if the day should ever come when I have to put down my pen and step away from the keyboard.

But I'm not there yet. I'm still writing, a little. I'm generally enjoying life and have the best of women by my side.

Time will tell what the future will bring, but it's never what we expect.